Having read this topic in it’s entirety I feel compelled by my conscience to give some perspective and advice on the matter – even if OP is no longer around, then at least for those who might be in a similar situation.
Before I do so however, I want to take the time to rebuke the admin for apparently exposing the content of this man’s private messages to the public – such conduct is an unacceptable violation of people’s privacy, and will make them rightfully hesitant to use your site for any such communication in the future.
If you want to give feedback on someone’s private conduct, do so in private, using a direct message – not publically in front of everyone.
Only use publically available information for public criticisms, out of basic respect for our people.
Also, accusing him of being a troll for merely asking for a refund after a few days of using the site is unreasonably hostile, as such a request is perfectly reasonable, especially considering the additional information he provided about his situation.
Returning to OP’s situation however, I would argue that if your happiness or even willingness to live hinges on external factors outside of your control, you have the wrong outlook on life.
We are only here because our ancestors endured the great sufferings of war, famine, tyrannical governments… and the list goes on, and those happened in the last century alone, disregarding the thousands of years prior to even basic luxuries such as electricity or running water becoming commonplace.
There is an old saying which goes “It’s not things that upset us, but our judgments about things.”
Considering that even the poor these days are living in the greatest luxury the world has ever known, which even the richest people 100 years ago did not have (the internet being a great example), how then can it be that so many people are so miserable, if this saying wasn’t true to at least some extent?
You have everything (and much more) which a man living 2000 years ago could’ve wanted, yet you feel like you can’t be happy unless you also get a woman on top of all that?
What about great men in history, like Plato for instance, who remained childless, but still provided great value to their people in the form of the great works that they created?
To be clear, I’m not saying you will, or should remain childless, but rather that your success or failure in this area is not within your direct control, as even if you have worked on yourself and have become a good man, there still needs to be a good woman who can match you in quality, which is something you have no control over – hence you may fail without it being ‘your fault’.
Which is why it is so important to not make your happiness dependant on something outside of your control.
If you’re struggling with the concept of separating how you feel from what external struggles you’re dealing with, then I would recommend looking into the works of Epictetus and Seneca, two prominent Stoic philosophers who laid out these concepts in their teachings – there are audio books available on YouTube if you don’t enjoy reading.
This post has already gotten quite long, so I’m going to cut it short here, to avoid making it any harder to read.
In closing I want to say that mental health is an important matter which should not be neglected, and can be worked on using the right studies – so make sure to take care of yourself, and take a break from work to address these matters if need be.
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